I always imagined my dad taking pictures of me in my cap and gown, giving me away to my husband and throwing my kids in the air. Those are scenes I had envisioned in my life. But then life happened. My dad had a stroke and it changed my life forever.
I can vividly remember feeling really hopeless. I was laying down in the hospital waiting room while my dad was fighting for his life thinking and crying to myself, ‘He’s never gonna see my kids, he’ll never get to walk me down the aisle, he won’t even see me graduate from college.’ Even now as and when I think back on that moment I get teary eyed and feel a little hopeless. But even in those harsh conditions there was something that remained constant – my love for my father and his love for me, the strength and bond of my family, the resilience of our faith and the power of prayer.
My dad is now living in a nursing home facility. He’s coherent, but his quality of life is different now. Sometimes he has to ask me what day of the week it is. Life sometimes passes him by and he misses out on a lot physically. Nevertheless, he is alive and well. I consider us to be blessed.
This life-change definitely changed my life. During my moment of hopelessness, not once did I think of how it would affect him and even more, how it would affect my mom and siblings. I was thinking of myself and I didn’t want to accept those changes because it would mean things didn’t go as I had planned. But the reality is, this changed all of our lives. Not just mine.
As of today, it’s still hard to deal with sometimes, but as a family we take it one day at a time. I thank God for His plans. I truly believe that God gives his toughest challenges, to his strongest people. Without a shadow of a doubt, the consistency in our life has been our bond and growth as a family, and our strength and faith in God.
Sometimes the conditions change so they can change us for the better.
In all conditions, God is a constant. Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
I don’t know what the future holds but I do know who holds my future and with that, everything will work out perfect.
Keep pressing and embrace the change.
Happy Father’s Day to my amazing dad!