I’m sitting in the hospital with my mother and one of my aunts. A nurse walked in a few seconds ago and started checking my grandmother’s vital signs. My aunt is telling my mom that my grandmother has never been this sick before and just yesterday she was talking.
But tonight, nothing.
People keep calling to check on her, other members of my family are in and out of their tears and I’m just trying to be the strong one. I’m not very good with these types of life events. I avoid confronting them publicly. I always grieve in private or once things have settled down and I’m not really sure why. As open as I am about my thoughts and feelings, I’m so private and guarded with my emotions at the same time…weird.