Yesterday there was a bible verse on my heart all day long and when one of my #bloggerbaes called me and mentioned the verse in our conversation, I knew God was speaking to me in the way that I thought He was.
“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”
My 2016 has gotten off to an amazing (and fast) start. At times I sit back with this confused look on my face in awe of how clear things are becoming for me. I distinctly remember praying to God for the things I have now and the fact that He is blessing me, in all my unworthiness, baffles me. Not only does it baffle me, sometimes it scares me. And worse, I’ve taken it for granted at times.
I have two major flaws that affect my happiness and mood on a regular basis. I get really anxious and impatient when things aren’t going my way. In those moments I tend to focus so much on what’s going “wrong” that I can’t see all the “right” things that are happening simultaneously.
And when I’m feeling deep, I realize that what’s wrong and what’s right is only a matter of perspective because Romans 8:28 tells me that all things work together for my good.
So whether a situation seems to be going wrong or going right, I’m going to be just fine and as a bonus, I’ll be better off than I was before that situation took place.
Clearly it’s not easy for me to have this positive perspective but when I do, I instantly feel better. Common sense tells me I should always be positive but somehow or another I forget when I’m in the moment. I’m trying to figure out what causes my negative or ungrateful reactions and the only thing I can think of is my desire to control my life. (Ya’ll know I’m a control freak.)
That’s the thing though. I KNOW I have no control over anything, much less my own life.
So why do I do what I know I shouldn’t do over and over again?
I think the mistake that I make repeatedly is being so attached to a certain outcome that I don’t want to accept anything less than what I’ve decided it should/would/could be in my mind. Having that type of outlook will leave me disappointed more than I’ll be satisfied because it’s really a set-up for failure.
Mentally and many times emotionally, I don’t leave room for “life” and for God to work. I keep trying to do it myself. But The Lord ain’t through with me yet! LOL