I’ve noticed over the last few months that I’ve changed…a lot. My interests have changed, the way I view myself has changed, what I’m attracted to has changed, what I will and will not tolerate has changed, what I want from life has changed (sort of), what’s important to me has changed and best of all, my relationship with God has changed.
If we don’t change, we don’t grow. If we don’t grow, we aren’t really living. – Gail Sheehy
I can’t remember as and when it all began, but I’ve felt it happening for a while now. I was fighting it because I was worried about the wrong thing – what other people would think. Now I couldn’t care less about what someone thinks of me because I am 100% happy and it’s a happiness that no one can take away from me.
Gone are the days that I worry about what everyone else is doing. I used to look at my Instagram feed and feel that I was missing out on different things because I was choosing to spend more time feeding my spirit, working on my business and creating memories with my loved ones. (What’s even crazier is that I don’t even get on Instagram anymore unless I post something…which has become less and less frequent as well. I never would have thought it!) I don’t get fulfillment from going out to clubs or being “in the mix” anymore. I actually feel like I’ve wasted time when I do those things. How I have fun and experience life has evolved into doing things that create meaning in my life.
To improve is to change; to be perfect is to change often. – Winston Churchill
Looking In The Mirror
I’ve written about my struggle with self-esteem in the past so you may be familiar with it but I used to want to be perfect. I wanted to be like the women on TV, in magazines, on billboards, in music videos, the list goes on. I was never satisfied with how I looked. I wanted to wear all the dramatic makeup and the trendiest clothing but one day I realized that doing those things doesn’t make me any different from the next woman on the outside. I like that I’m different and I don’t feel the need to conform or change anything about me anymore.
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