Why do I even call Daana? I know that before the conversation is over, she’s going to either make me really mad at myself, really happy with myself or I’ll have an assignment to do, LOL. I know exactly why I call her though, she tells me the truth – no matter how good, bad or ugly it is and I love her for that. But not only does she tell me the truth, she forces me to come to terms with my own truths.
I think that the times we live in makes it really easy for us to focus on “looking right” but we’re not necessarily who we appear to be. I’m not saying that I’m a bad person or have split personalities. What I mean is that we get so caught up in concealing our flaws and issues and then pretty soon they get to a point where we don’t know how to even begin to resolve them or make them better.
I know you feel me.
I wrote a post on JessicaSimien.com almost a year ago about suffering from low self esteem. After the article was published and people read it, so many people told me that they would have never guessed that I had those issues. That’s what I mean by not appearing to be who you really are.
Even though having positive self-esteem was a struggle in the past that I’ve made incredible progress in, every now and then it rears its ugly head and gets me in some not-so-good situations. Being a better person takes constant work and I’m realizing more and more that I cannot expect overnight results nor can I beat myself up about back tracking on previous progress that I’ve made.
So back to my conversation with Daana.
After I gave her my always dramatic account of what’s been going on with me (I really can be a drama queen at times LOL) she gave me a soul searching assignment. I have to be honest with myself and how I feel about certain things I’m dealing with – things from work, things with my family, my relationships with men I’m dating/have dated – everything! After I’m done I should have some answers to questions that I have. To tell you the truth, I’m not really looking forward to this but I know it’s going to help me out.
Here it goes!