Last week was rough. I worked on a campaign that completely stressed me out, I over-extended myself and I started feeling a way about a few people and I can’t really decipher where those feelings are coming from.
Because there was so much going on with me, I can’t just accept my skeptical and cynical feelings. I have a tendency to start thinking super negatively when I’m frustrated and no one is safe. I’m a Scorpio, duh!
If anyone ever told you that being a blogger was easy…they lied to you. It’s not. At least it’s not when you’re a professional blogger (code for: you make money from your website). My blog is my life, just ask my boyfriend. He constantly complains about how much of a workaholic I’ve become and my poor child is only six months old and already knows how to type when I leave my laptop near him. *face palm*
I’m still trying to get the hang of this work-from-home-mom thing. I’ve worked from home for my own businesses since 2014 but with the added responsibility of being a mother, a lot has changed in my typical work day. But that’s not all. A lot has changed in my life period.
I have to make time for diaper changes, feedings, play time, consoling time and then my work. That isn’t even counting me showering, brushing my teeth, eating or cleaning. I consider it a great day when I can do all of that AND knock off a few tasks from my to-do list. On top of mommy duties, I’m dealing with an always fluctuating income and having a huge workload but not enough money to hire someone to help me out.
I’m not gonna lie ya’ll – I get frustrated. Often. And from time to time I need to adjust my attitude.
Now this only applies if you’ve been rocking with me for a while, I don’t know if you can tell or not, but I’ve changed a lot. I talked about this last week but I had some ways that were not so becoming of me and I am working my butt off to try and be better. I don’t want to just be better toward other people, I want to be a better person to myself as well, if not more.
When I allow my attitude to get the best of me, it affects everything. I’m not as productive, I spend too much time whining and complaining, I give life to negativity through my words and my motivation and creativity takes a hit. None of those things leave room for me to be my best. I know I have to give myself grace but I’ve had way too many of these weeks lately and I keep getting further and further behind with my work. When I’m behind on my work, that pushes quality time with my honey back even further.
I’m attempting to adjust my attitude by first being grateful. Expressing gratitude puts you in a mental and emotional space to look at your cup as half full instead of half empty. I realize that I have a lot more than what I’m lacking and when it’s all said and done, I have everything I need. Another way that I’m adjusting my attitude is scheduling my days better and making sure to include a little free time to do whatever I want. In the past I’ve always treated free time as a reward but I’m learning that free time is necessary to give yourself a mental break. I hate to admit it but I’ve been caught up in the Instagram work ethic swindle. (Bonus points for you if you can tell me what I’m talking about in the comment section.)
So far this week I’m doing better but I still had a short moment earlier today. I’d love if you would share some of your best attitude adjustment tips in the comments below!