*sigh* Yes, I started this post with a sigh…but it’s not really a bad sigh. It’s more of a nervous, let’s get this out of the way sigh.
I’m so thankful to God for bringing certain people into my life who aren’t afraid to tell me about myself. I can’t stand a “yes man!” I need people around me who will tell me the truth, no matter how good, bad or ugly it is. Tell me as and when I’m wrong! Tell me that I need to get it together! Don’t just co-sign whatever it is I’m doing…especially when it’s foolish or detrimental to my well-being.
I had another one of my truth moments last night while talking to a very special friend of mine. No, not Daana this time, but someone who is so close to my heart and has become like another mother to me. She basically confirmed something I’d been thinking about for the last two weeks or more.
I need to woman up.
I don’t mean that like I’m a silly-acting grown woman or anything or like that…no way. What I mean is, I let fear get in the way of a LOT of things that I want to do and (especially) things that I want to say.
Fear is a terrible emotion. It can consume you, ruin your mood, kill your dream or it can even paralyze you into not doing anything at all. Nothing positive can come from fear. Fear does not motivate you. Fear holds you back.
“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” – 2 Timothy 1:7 KJV
I need to woman up and take charge of my business and put my foot down whenever necessary, I need to woman up and tell people how I feel instead of using my writing as a crutch. It’s time to put down the pen and speak up. I need to let go of the fears that keep me from keeping my mouth shut when everything inside of me is telling me to speak out!
The truth is, I’ve been working toward this for about a year now and it’s still a process. I make strides here or there but I have to chip away at fear a little every single day. Pretty soon, I’ll be able to add fearless to my list of attributes!