Death is a subject that many people do not care to talk about. Talking about, or even thinking about death gives me chills or makes me instantly sad, nervous, nostalgic and anxious at the same time.
Yesterday morning, I got word that my Aunt Selina of Baton Rouge passed away. In case you didn’t know, I was born in Lafayette, Louisiana and lived in Baton Rouge for a few years. My father is a Baton Rouge native and half of my family lives there. Even though I don’t get to visit as much as I would like, I am still deeply connected to them and my Creole heritage. Social networking sites like Facebook, Twitter and Instagram help make the distance feel shorter.
Getting word my aunt’s death sent me into this dazed state of mind, similar to being frozen in time. You find yourself staring at nothing in particular as moments that you didn’t realize you remembered flash through your mind – all at once it seems.
It just so happens that I was watching Oprah’s interview with Deepak Chopra Sunday afternoon when they discussed death and why we fear it, how we deal with it, etc. I loved Chopra’s response about how he views death. He doesn’t fear it because he “dies every day”. He brought attention to the fact that the past is dead and the child we once were is dead.
I used to get sad during happy moments at the thought of not having my loved ones around or vice versa. I’m working on getting better about it and accepting the fact that we will all have to leave this “place” (as in earth) one day. I think what freaks me out is the way in which it will happen.
There was a time when I was so superstitious about even bringing up death!