Happy New Year!
We made it through 2017 and now we’re jumping off 2018 and I don’t know about you, but I’m ready for it! There’s nothing like a fresh start to help you get motivated. Whether you want to finish something you started last year or whether you want to start with a clean slate, now is the perfect time to do so.
When I think about last year, I’d describe it as like being on a rollercoaster. It was up and down, fast and slow but definitely a year to remember.
The highlight of 2017 (and of my entire life) was the birth of my first and only child, Marley.
I was so anxious to meet him that I took labor and delivery like a pro despite all my fears. Not only did I have to learn and grow as a mother because of his birth but I also had to grow as a person. Becoming a mom changed my life in so many ways that have helped me be a better woman. I’m closer to Christ, I treat others better and with more grace and most importantly, I’m better to myself.
Other highlights include becoming an ambassador for RaceTrac, finally cultivating the type of relationship I’ve always wanted with my mother, building the right foundation for us and our family with Tony and getting clearer about how I want my business endeavors to pan out.
I’d be lying if I wrote that all I experienced in 2017 were highlights – that’s very far from the truth. I also experienced quite a few failures, disappointments and low moments.
Even though becoming a mother has been the highlight of my life, at the same time I struggled a lot emotionally and mentally with the transition. I took medication for postpartum depression and I had a very low point in which I lost my cool with Marley. I didn’t hurt him, but I yelled and startled him…and I was so ashamed and almost slipped back into a bad place.
Other not-so-great-moments of the year include Tony and I struggling to adjust to our roles as parents, having major difficulty balancing my time between myself, my child, my relationship and career and having to face some harsh truths about this world that we live in.
When I began to think about my vision for 2018, I didn’t want to really make resolutions. Not that those don’t work (because they do), I just wanted to try something different. I thought about what I wanted overall…one major, overarching goal that would help me make smaller goals to work toward throughout the year. I recalled seeing a few of my blogger friends declare theme words for the year and I immediately liked that approach.
My theme word for 2018 is stability.
I chose stability for several reasons. I love to journal so that I can reflect on things, especially decisions I made and my reasoning behind them. I turned 30 this past November and as I thought about all the lessons I learned in my twenties, I realized that most of those years were spent in instability.
Instability in my dating life.
Instability in my living situations.
Instability in my career.
I suppose that’s what your twenties are for…instability…so that you can grasp the importance of making the right decisions with the information you have before you. It’s about learning the consequences of being unstable and why you have to always deal with reality and not how you’d like to see things.
Stability has never been as important as it is now and I’m looking forward to all those tiny steps that it’s going to take to get there. The latter part of 2017 really set me up for success and I know that my vision for stability this year will soon come to pass.